We Are Stardust

I know where women began
As gods,
As prey not of men 
But of stars

We start at her beginning
So small, like tiny particles adrift in the cosmos
With every horror, she splits into another thousand pieces
Making her smaller in each devastation
Until her center is so tiny that she implodes 
Like snowfall in a storm of creation 
Giving birth to the stars 
A millennia of light 
Her little specks of fire trailing 
Scaling the universe
Painting streaks of blood upon the moon

This is a woman 
Both red and bright 
Splitting all of time and space into fragments 
Giving goddess, god-like,
Woman of the night.

cover art by Vera van den Berg

When I Wake Up With You

Image by NanoMortis “Holding For So Long”

When I wake up with you
I wonder if I’ll love a thousand boys before I die
First the boy who is sweet
The next boy that corrupts
The third boy who is beautiful
The last boy that destroys
Who will you be
And how will I die

When I wake up to you
I wonder if it will be the last time I cry
First when a love left
Second when a love left
Third when I realized I was the only one left
Where will you abandon me
And how will I die

When I am with you
I wonder if I’ll ever feel safe in your arms
As I did with my brothers
As I do with my friends
As I used to with him
When will I let you hold me
And how will I die

When I am me
I wonder if you know the kind of person I am
This girl that holds onto words like treasure
The girl who loves quite deeply
That girl who is an unbeliever of magic
Why can’t I stop destroying ‘us’
And how will I die