Category: poetry

We Are Stardust

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I know where women began
As gods,
As prey not of men 
But of stars

We start at her beginning
So small, like tiny particles adrift in the cosmos
With every horror, she splits into another thousand pieces
Making her smaller in each devastation
Until her center is so tiny that she implodes 
Like snowfall in a storm of creation 
Giving birth to the stars 
A millennia of light 
Her little specks of fire trailing 
Scaling the universe
Painting streaks of blood upon the moon

This is a woman 
Both red and bright 
Splitting all of time and space into fragments 
Giving goddess, god-like,
Woman of the night.

cover art by Vera van den Berg

This Heaven

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Featured artwork @Patryk Garrett

Tears tip past midnight
Brightness hangs at noon
His darkness looms
But anything he offers me,
I want to consume.

His strong arms form the stars
Crisp, like fairy leaves in a storm
More beautiful than daylight,
But fragile as the day I was born.

With a song and dance that will never play
This heaven upholds a piece of my pain
Under sheets and shadows,
His kiss promised beneath the rain.

I’ve only ever wanted one thing for myself
And I want to show you his name
Here lies that girl from the woods,
With a wolf’s heart to tame.

Heaven holds a sense of grief
Hands full of desire
All unwanted promises and pleasures,
Will hereto break the fire.

What You Say

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Image Credit: @Syllie

I won’t feel right in this skin till I’m perfect
I’ll find no freedom from this heartbeat unless I’m dead
Affirmation is the gloss of true happiness
That is no easier real than said

Not even the wicked deserve eternal damnation
And my everlasting breath lies in dying
What troubles me now is Evil
But Evil was created in seven days
And a day in a thousand years isn’t why we’re here

These thoughts and pen on paper
Through years upon decades of summers
Here, in old hearts that disappear
Memories writ in sand shift and swell
And now you say this is the reason we are here?

You say ‘I will love you, but not this you,
And not like this’
This hello is just an insincere goodbye
You have four loves in your language
And insist that I must give my penance or I will die?

I say your god is this, Truth and Lie
Your god is Love, and he is Vengeance
Your god is One and he is All
But will he take the Fall?

When I Wake Up With You

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Image by NanoMortis “Holding For So Long”

When I wake up with you
I wonder if I’ll love a thousand boys before I die
First the boy who is sweet
The next boy that corrupts
The third boy who is beautiful
The last boy that destroys
Who will you be
And how will I die

When I wake up to you
I wonder if it will be the last time I cry
First when a love left
Second when a love left
Third when I realized I was the only one left
Where will you abandon me
And how will I die

When I am with you
I wonder if I’ll ever feel safe in your arms
As I did with my brothers
As I do with my friends
As I used to with him
When will I let you hold me
And how will I die

When I am me
I wonder if you know the kind of person I am
This girl that holds onto words like treasure
The girl who loves quite deeply
That girl who is an unbeliever of magic
Why can’t I stop destroying ‘us’
And how will I die

Flesh

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art by @Endling(TheArtingStarvist.)

 

I am flesh
A walking sheath of barbs
The pinpoint of pleasure
Full of every annoying nag
Demanding the deep
Singing it’s real
The only thing I think I feel

Heavy links cuff him
While I am dared to carry them
Whilst I am dared to love him
And at first glance
There is a crave for connection
Affection
Lustation
Frustration
 
All I have is the nothing
Covered by death
I am flesh
Just flesh and blood and bone
So long as the path I walk
Is a sheath of barbs
You are the only thing I think is real

Tonight – tale of the Moon girl

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Tonight we bask
Under the pale hue of the moon
Smile in the ray of its glee
Never knowing the sun will rise soon

Tonight we bond
Walking through the grace of silver powdered sand
Feel the promise of gravity around our feet
And feel the breath of life in each other’s hand

Tonight we dream
Laughing with blue stars and singing with an invisible breeze
While we dance in circles
Until one falls and the other leaves

Tonight I remain silent
Watching the rise of the sun’s glare
I risk racing across clouds to find the wind
Only stop to realize it was never there

Tonight I go
Locking the gate of never after to which I belong
Climbing forever and never into the darkness
Whispering the story of a girl with no song

Tonight ends
Where the light went out as with the lie
Breathing roughly in a silence
And I hear the Moon beg the Sun that it does not die

Today I stand
Severing my caged insides apart
Wondering who I am, what I am, why I must go
And where I should start.