This Heaven

Featured artwork @Patryk Garrett

Tears tip past midnight
Brightness hangs at noon
His darkness looms
But anything he offers me,
I want to consume.

His strong arms form the stars
Crisp, like fairy leaves in a storm
More beautiful than daylight,
But fragile as the day I was born.

With a song and dance that will never play
This heaven upholds a piece of my pain
Under sheets and shadows,
His kiss promised beneath the rain.

I’ve only ever wanted one thing for myself
And I want to show you his name
Here lies that girl from the woods,
With a wolf’s heart to tame.

Heaven holds a sense of grief
Hands full of desire
All unwanted promises and pleasures,
Will hereto break the fire.

When I Wake Up With You

Image by NanoMortis “Holding For So Long”

When I wake up with you
I wonder if I’ll love a thousand boys before I die
First the boy who is sweet
The next boy that corrupts
The third boy who is beautiful
The last boy that destroys
Who will you be
And how will I die

When I wake up to you
I wonder if it will be the last time I cry
First when a love left
Second when a love left
Third when I realized I was the only one left
Where will you abandon me
And how will I die

When I am with you
I wonder if I’ll ever feel safe in your arms
As I did with my brothers
As I do with my friends
As I used to with him
When will I let you hold me
And how will I die

When I am me
I wonder if you know the kind of person I am
This girl that holds onto words like treasure
The girl who loves quite deeply
That girl who is an unbeliever of magic
Why can’t I stop destroying ‘us’
And how will I die