Image by NanoMortis “Holding For So Long”
When I wake up with you
I wonder if I’ll love a thousand boys before I die
First the boy who is sweet
The next boy that corrupts
The third boy who is beautiful
The last boy that destroys
Who will you be
And how will I die
When I wake up to you
I wonder if it will be the last time I cry
First when a love left
Second when a love left
Third when I realized I was the only one left
Where will you abandon me
And how will I die
When I am with you
I wonder if I’ll ever feel safe in your arms
As I did with my brothers
As I do with my friends
As I used to with him
When will I let you hold me
And how will I die
When I am me
I wonder if you know the kind of person I am
This girl that holds onto words like treasure
The girl who loves quite deeply
That girl who is an unbeliever of magic
Why can’t I stop destroying ‘us’
And how will I die
j. r. wallington 